Second

Why I always be the second choice?
Why they won't hear me before I hear them
They won't hug me before I hug them first
Instead sometime, they won't hold me, even I already hold them for time to time

Why my existency never important

Even, in my life, my own life, I didn't live for myself
I didn't live because of me, my needed, my want
I never be the main character

And I don't know what must I do to change all of these

Why
I can't be the passive one
The one who was given, before give

Am I wicked?
Tell me to be kindhearted
I've tried.. everyday

Am I not fun? not nice?
Not interesting? because myownself not interested with anything about me
Yeah, may be that's the cause

Can't anyone teach to love my own self? before loved by the others

Even If I said I can't stand anymore with this situation
I...
I just know nothing
Life is complicated