Girls are so precious, I don't know about boys... Boys are precious too
But I mean I don't really hangout really close with guys after I wear hijab
So, I found out this gift box. So in freshmen year in uni we ever do gift exchange. And I got this simple gift in a little box, I even forget what's the gift but she use confetti and marbles and greeting card/letter 🥺🥺🥺🥰 That's really cute! I also forget the greetings or letters. But, I was like dang that's really creative and you really give effort for a simple introduction day.
While me I'm on the other side I'm kind of lazy and simpler person. I even forget what I bought for that occasion. I just remember it's useful and I wrap it quite well. But in high school! During farewell I really don't know what to buy, and I bought these two things/items, really really speed shopping, I only remember one. And it's really big but lite, and we're like doing games circling or something give it to the left, to right, circle it. And comes the unboxing one by one, my gift made everyone, my classmates, laugh because I buy this trash bin 🗑️ with Mickey Mouse picture on it. I don't even know what's funny, but I just laugh because everybody laugh. And I was like "What??" 💁♀️🤷♀️
And everytime I see this little box I still feel aw so cute 🥺🥰 though I even forget the gift 😅🤦♀️ sadly we don't know whose gift it's from we just close our eyes and keep exchanging 😅 But I think it's for the best because I'm in public uni right and not everybody's kinda well off, I think if the gift quite disappointing it's really not that they don't want to give the best she/he could give it's just the time and resources limited 😊 And it's like in Gymnasium, the new one, we're sitting neatly so many of us and start exchanging with our eyes closed, so you feel it, wow, I got big oh no not mine, I got absurd shape now, I got this little gift, and so on... so it's really little chance to found out who, and I'm just too lazy to think... And/or count
But anyone who give this thanks 🤍🤍🤍
I just suddenly remember about this because one of my very close relative Mba Maya & Mba Nisa visit us, but I really can't open my eyes because I sleep late the night before... And they bought us something and I feel really sorry but thanks a lot 🥰🤍 their presence more than enough 🙆♀️ As we're kinda lonely because my Dad homebound
So many days back, one of my uncle visit us too, and after he's back home in our hometown homecountry, he send us package 😂😆 but it's like failed experiment 😅 Alhamdulillah we got a good harvest in the backyard there so they send us this banana, tbh, bananas are valuables here! There are so many and all of them are favorites have their own mission in our culinary... He already use this Paxel a famous logistic to send food or something fresh, but it's in a box right not in the trunk anymore it's great when they sent it, but when arrive, thank you so much, but it's all already black and crash with each other so it's actually pretty good like, they give it before too sweet or old, but because I think it's not in the tree or hanging and I think Paxel use some kind of freezer this turns out bad, but I'm really genuinely happy just seeing watching the photo of harvest season one day my mom go home to my hometown/country too and send me picture of eggs and I was like aww 🥚🥰
It's black but not ripe enough, it's really, weird...
But not so long after, our neighbor send us banana very generously that's kind of amazing
Like what's meant for you would never escape you
Because it's you know it's really hard I wanna cry
Why though? Trees that you don't care about thriving, like I literally got a tree in my house in the wall and we have waterfall inside my kitchen... But our plants that we plant, there are so many obstacles from wind, harsh rain, flood, pest, etc
So from that on since my COVID-19 project I am so much more grateful for the meal at my plates/table
Life never run out of ideas to annoy you...
Btw I have so many memorable memories with bananas... Not my top favorites but I think if they can speak they surely have so many good stories to tell
Some of us still use it as currency or medium of exchange
I just laugh and helping my mom with it, but Paxel please note this just sincere advice, or may be fun fact
It's actually general knowledge no need to stuffed banana in refrigerator/freezer
I mean my mom never really do that too
It's actually great for smoothies but my mom just discarded it, after wash it and ask me to dry it in the sun, I think she said it's not good, but I'm fasting so I dunno, I want to try but I have no energy, just an average Indonesian, love to waste food
Imagine the emission, all the water used, carbon footprint, etc
It's actually a normal thing a parent told kids not to waste food but me as not a parent and not a respectable figure from my elderlies sides too
Just as usual suffering in silence, what do I know, may be my mom's right but at least I've speak up "we can bake it" something like that
I sometimes remember in the old days when I was in public transportation street singer still underage and was asked did you go to school? Yes. You should okay, don't leave school for this. By adult there, like the community really care for each other and stand up for what she thinks it's right... We give/help too not just preach. And now I was like nobody
I genuinely envy how subtle and caring people or adult were
While me I feel like too much to take care or concern both adults and youths but they don't really care... anyway
So, I feel like a failure, as I can't help much any generations
But you know change start from ourselves and it's the thing you can control, others if it's beyond your capabilities or capacities, at least start from me and be consistent... It's actually always like that... I also have English teacher a graduate from abroad who work/teach in public school and he's also cycling to work and very consistent... They give you example and that's really always amazing for me... Action do speak louder. Me and my friends we genuinely respect him. I mean don't get discouraged in any days or era these things happen too you're so welcome to feel like a failure sometimes but no need to be so in a hurry
There are still so many things you can be a failure at lol
Think about it why would he choose to be a teacher at the first place it's really bad the students are chaotic won't hear you sometimes
Why not become a lecturer (well, it's just about the same actually)
But you know in my high school we also have history teacher whose also lecturer
Just imagine all the money and exhaustion to study again abroad
And my Islamic teacher said he only get/earn around few bucks a month and at that time there's this policy that teachers should do certain hours of teaching and he really move around from school to school he said praise be to God at least it's useful to pay for the fuel (he's riding motorcycle), this teacher is actually very close to us so casual and talk a lot about his life stories, and beloved by many of the students
But may be he's there... They're there... Just because...
It really takes a lot of sincerity and patience to be a teacher, I mean you really need to be "this is for Allah" to keep going it's really... Harsh
And then if you go up and become school dean you'll get prosecuted with corruption though you're honest anyway
I feel it like waaaaaaaay deeper rn than when I was just a normal highschooler
Bless to all WNI, you're in my prayers
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I'm actually neutral about being a teacher
Alhamdulillah it's not my dream job, I don't really have one exact dream job actually as a kid, so if I'm kinda a failure at it, still neutral
But being English teacher in public school or remote area is kinda like, some face showing "I don't understand and why should I"
And there's this one student bring younger brother and he seems so lost and pressured pre-school age
"Main aja yuk Kak" back then in uni they ask to let's just play and enough study for today
I'm not traumatized, I don't despise too
It's both feels cruel and funny
It's really not your fault, Sir
We're just dumb and can't keep up sometimes
So when the class really chaotic and a kid somewhere shows pressured constipated-like face
I'm not a good teacher and not really creative I don't really do an effort to make the class fun
I'm just change subject or let's just finish it a little bit, they say it's important, I'm not interested too that much to be honest to taught English, I need to do what I should do, then we can play
I mean I'm here to help you study, this is important as a foundation, for me personally, this is really basic
In my days, it's really is okay to taught kids this material it's not too hard not too easy
To be really honest deep inside I sometimes don't want them to master English you're Sundanese I hope you can speak Sundanese, I feel like not speaking English is okay and it's really funny, if you master it, it's not cute anymore sadly
But if I taught Iqro (how to read Qur'an) I don't feel guilty it's also funny like I understand you're not Arab and if you master it you can speak perfect Arab and you can still do your slang Arab-Javanese, etc style, with the wrong way for certain letters, you still remember it
You can switch
I mean if you can read Qur'an, I'm genuinely happy, and you still can do two style the broken one and the better one
But I study English in private school and private courses, so it's more like, my parents already paid with their hard-earned money I should do well and not waste it
Teaching Qur'an even if it's not paid feels wondrous like, how come at your age I cannot
I'm really struggling
Or sometimes for me personally it's really easy what's the matter
It's both challenging and tick my curiosities like kids are awesome
God is great, these kids look similar but their tongue is really default to their setelan pabrik (root or origin), or sometimes like Harun, it's just they do not speak well, I mean Musa
And it keeps me wondering why is it and how far we can push/help you to your full potentials, and it doesn't have to be mastering reading Qur'an, Qur'an is more than just recitation, it's how we act, how we talk, that's also Qur'an
And sometimes they just murrmurr it 'audzubsjsnznskK bismihhsjsshj innasgudhdhsjiskskk
They don't master reciting Qur'an but at least some kids now master how to pretend they master reciting short surahs
At least they're familiar, great, it'll be your best friend for a lifetime
Now that I repair your attention span don't forget to connect with me in iJogja arumamelia 🥰 there are many with the same name but I think 🤔 you'd know me best on my reading history or vibes 😅
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