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Depression & Anxiety

So yeah, I got this different chemical in my brain.

First strike of anxiety happened some years ago. And everything seems ruined, I can't even finished my undergraduate thesis. Kalo kalian baca berita vokalis linkin park yang bunuh diri, cowoknya awkarin yang kata Ayahnya collapsed by design sama temen-temennya... Gue bisa lah ngerasa-rasain apa yang mereka rasain. Ngerasa nggak berdaya, ada perang di otak gue, jijik sama diri sendiri, nggak makan berhari-hari, tidur-makan-mandi aja berantakkan... Tapi untung gue muslim gtu jd gue msh shalat soalnya takut masuk neraka dan msh puasa. Tiap maghrib itu gue keinget nyokap gue suka teriak "ORANG MUKMIN ITU MENYEGERAKAN BERBUKA!". Jd gue bangun, makan, gak jd mati deh.

How Islam Helped Me

-Depression & Anxiety-

Apa yang dialamin Mba ini mungkin agak bsa menjelaskan (gue males aja si sbnrmya menjelaskan kasus gue). Tahun lalu (2017) gue bener2 parah, gue baca ayat kursi sampe 6 kali sehari bisa jadi ya, trs gue jd rajin baca qur'an dan maknanya, jd rajin shalat juga. Gue jg jd lebih sensitif, masa gue ngeliat anak kecil kesurupan bntr, tp yg lain gak nyadar.

But anyhow, shalat-sabar-puasa-quran itu bener-bener ngebantu si, udh kaya obat anxiety gue gtu lho dan nggak cuma 5 kali sehari bahkan jam 10-an itu gue ngerasa udah gak bsa nguasain diri gue sendiri, jd gue tambah dhuha. Alhamdulillah for Islam lah pokoknya. Tahun ini alhamdulillah udah lumayan sembuh :)

Syahadat: Kisah Mengharukan Seorang Muslimah Mualaf

Diterjemahkan dari caption akun instagram @eslimah:

#syahadat

5 tahun yg lalu, hari ini, aku mendeklarasikan diriku sebagai seorang Muslim. Waktu berlalu dan aku sesungguhnya tidak dapat mengingat kehidupan dalam bentuk lain lagi. Ini di luar bayanganku seseorang sepertiku dalam kenyataannya terpilih atas berkah seperti ini. Aku tahu banyak followers-ku mualaf, dan aku tahu apa yang kalian lalui seperti apa yang di pelupuk mataku.

Aku telah melalui puncak tertinggi dan terendah ketika berbicara mengenai iman. Memakan waktu bertahun-tahun untuk bahkan memulai mengenakan pakaian secara menutup—dan bahkan ketika aku ingin, aku tidak tahu apa yang semestinya kukenakan, bagaimana mengenakannya, dan bahkan tidak memiliki dana untuk mendapatkan pakaian baru. Seperti itu pula, aku pernah melewati masa dimana aku berfikir bahwa akulah satu-satunya muslim pertama yang tidak akan pernah bisa shalat, sebagaimana rasanya begitu kompleks untuk menyempurnakan dan menghafalkan. Aku pernah melewati fase dimana aku terlalu takut untuk shalat ditengah-tengah rumahku sendiri, takut dan ngeri seseorang datang mendapati aku. Aku pernah berfikir tentang diriku sendiri bahwa aku lah muslim pertama yang tidak akan pernah bisa berpuasa karena ada saat ketika rasanya Maghrib jam 10:30 malam sangatlah tak tertahankan. Aku sudah melewati fase dimana memakan waktu 30 menit bagiku hanya untuk menyelesaikan 1 shalat. Aku pernah merasakan orang yang kucintai menolakku. Aku pernah merasakan aku tidak memiliki tempat dimanapun di dunia ini dan dimanapun itu. Aku pernah mengalami kesendirian sampai pada suatu derajat dimana rasanya tidak akan lagi ada yang bisa terkendali. Tapi... untuk atau seluruh kehilanganku, aku telah mendapatkan Islamku. Dan disini lah aku, 5 tahun kemudian, menjanjikan kepadamu segalanya akan baik-baik saja (everything will be OK). Bahkan jika sekarang ini rasanya tidak seperti itu—kamu lah diantara orang-orang yang paling diberkahi di dunia ini. Hari-hari kedepan yang lebih baik menanti. Segalanya sangat berharga. Hargai lah hal-hal kecil dalam kehidupan ini. Tersenyumlah.

Tetapkan niat mu dalam kemurnian dan tetap lah berjalan, tetap lah berjuang, tetaplah percaya, dan kelilingilah dirimu dengan orang-orang baik. Ingat gol-mu.  Pertahankan kerendahhatian. Berusaha untuk menjaga hati mu tulus/murni dan utuh.

Ada salah satu kutipan klise yang sangat aku nikmati secara mendalam, yang mana semacam baris berikut... Tidak ada yg berkata ini akan mudah, mereka hanya berkata ini akan sangat berharga.

Terimakasih untuk kalian semua, aku menghargai kalian dengan sangat mendalam. #alhamdulillahuntuksegalanya

She Was Pretty

She was pretty. She spent half her life plucking, waxing, practising how to wear makeup, applying makeup, shopping for this, shopping for that, taking pictures of herself to show others just how good she was at dressing herself and how beautiful she looked with the makeup she wore, she wore clothes which hung gracefully around her frame, those perfect skinny jeans, that silk blouse which hung to her curves elegantly, those high heels which made her legs look more slender, the fake eyelashes, the fake hair extensions…but it’s ‘my body’ she said. ‘Its up to me how I dress myself, nothing to do with anybody else’ she said ‘il change one day if I’m supposed to’ she said.
Then one day she found herself being lowered into her grave, no fake eyelashes, or perfect fit jeans, no makeup, no heels, just a white sheet, being lowered into the final place her body would ever visit, where her body will slowly disintegrate to nothing as maggots feast on the skin she spent so many hours beautifying for the world. ‘Its my body’ she argued when some advised her and others criticised her, but it was never her body, her body always belonged to Allah swt, her body was a test from her Lord to see whether she spent her life calling it ‘her’ body or treating it like it was a body which belonged to Allah swt. ‘Indeed we belong to Allah and Indeed to Allah we will return’ (Surah Baqarah: 156)
May Allah swt protect us from this way of thinking and open our hearts and eyes to the truth that nothing belongs to us but with the permission of Allah swt. May we be protected from misusing our bodies being tempted by the Dunya. Ameen

#repost @the_real_hijab_in_islam

When you don't know what you want...

At least do something!

Pun kalo lu tetep nggak nemuin apa yang lu pengen, at least seringkali lu bakal tau lho apa yang nggak lu pengen setelah lu ngelakuin sesuatu itu. Life is a journey, you don't get to a conclusion instanly. Kalo iya, ya nggak seru, ya nggak?

"...So when you have finished, then stand up..." —Ash-Sharĥ (The Relief)

Kalo udh selesai, tetep lakuin sesuatu, gua tertohok karena selama ini cuman mikir gimana jd lebih produktif? Yaelah lakuin aja sesuatu jangan cuman mikir, mikir itu penting, tapi mikir doang sambil diem kelamaan itu nggak bagus, dan GUE! adalah salah satu bukti, salah satu korbannya, YA kebanyakan mikir nggak ada aksi sangaaaat sangat tidak bagus.

Kalo-kalo nih ya—ini kemungkinan terburuk aja—kalopun apa yang lu lakuin selama ini bukan yang lu mau dan lu nggak sadar-sadar... ketika lu sadar! Maaaasih banyak waktu buat lo! Buat ngejar apa yang lu bener-bener mau. Simpel ajalah rum, nggak usah dibikin ribet-ribet. Ayolah bergerak, makan yang sehat, hidup sehat, banyak ibadah, banyak menghasilkan karya, jangan idle selamanya ketika waktu nggak pernah berhenti.

"For a believer, dunia ini hanya sekejap mata. And the hereafter? Eternal!" —Anonimus

Agak ngeri sih kalo baca kata-kata itu tapi emang bener... gimana dong? Tapi mau lu takut, sedih, seneng, bingung, atau apalah, berdoalah. Bener banget. Kita tuh cuma numpang di bumI ini, sebentar pula. Yaaa back to the topik, tapinya kita semua itu unik, kita semua punya takdir pun nasib, pernah denger ini nggak sih?

"Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it." —Charles R Swindoll

LET'S GO! MOVE! MOVE! MOVE! AND DO ACTION! ACTION! ACTION!
AYO! GERAK! GERAK! GERAK! DAN BERAKSI! BERAKSI! BERAKSI!
OUIYEAAAAAAH!!!

Done.

Tangsel, 01 Feb 2014

A. A. W.

Sacrifice?

Too often sacrificing not always good.
Sometimes you hurt someone.
The one who always fights for you.
The one who wants to be with you, who always wants to be your best friend.
Finally, that person will believe however he/she try to hold you... the thing is you don't have any urge to hold her/him back.
You don't really need people.
You really hurt them who try really hard... fight for your own sake... but you just like "It's okay I won't take part."

People use drug, left by the one they love, bullied, see their parents fight everyday, etc and every-time they just like "It's okay. I resign." "I can't. I won't go.. I won't try." "I'm alone."

Antara Kepo dan Peduli

Jika kita berbicara tentang cerita pasti identik dengan penyimak.

Teman, kali ini saya ingin mengingatkan sedikit (satu poin saja) mengenai kepada-siapa-anda-bercerita baik itu cerita bahagia atau pun problem anda. Intinya berceritalah kepada orang yang kira-kira peduli dengan Anda. Jangan buang-buang waktu anda bercerita kepada orang yang hanya ingin tahu tapi tidak peduli.

Orang yang tidak Anda kenal, yang Anda temui begitu saja di suatu perjalanan, bisa saja peduli. Tapi teman sendiri malah terkadang hanya sekedar ingin tahu. Ada juga sahabat yang ingin tahu + peduli. Dan ada juga keluarga yang mereka sangat peduli pada Anda, tapi Anda bercerita ataupun tidak mereka sama sekali tidak mempermasalahkan itu, itu hak Anda sepenuhnya, jika sudah sedekat ini dengan seseorang, bahkan sebelum bercerita, mereka sudah mengerti apa yang sedang Anda rasakan, terkadang kalian hanya perlu menangis di bahu mereka tanpa perlu panjang lebar bercerita.

Yang terakhir, bahkan sebelum Anda menangis Ia sudah tahu segalanya, Anda hanya perlu percaya. Dia lah Tuhan Anda. Pencipta diri Anda, termasuk pencipta hati Anda.

Limit

Can you guess? :)

[Btw don't read! If you won't to read it till the end... Cause I was worried you misunderstood the italic-ed words if you don't read it completely]

Thank you ^^

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A girl who is warm and humble during the day

A classy girl who know how to enjoy the freedom of a cup of coffee

A girl whose heart gets hotter when night comes

A girl with that kind of twist

I’m a guy

A guy who is as warm as you during the day

A guy who one-shots his coffee before it even cools down

A guy whose heart bursts when night comes

That kind of guy

Beautiful, loveable

Yes you, hey, yes you, hey

Beautiful, loveable

Yes you, hey, yes you, hey

Now let’s go until the end

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A girl who looks quiet but plays when she plays

A girl who puts her hair down when the right time comes

A girl who covers herself but is more sexy than a girl who bares it all

A sensable girl like that

I’m a guy

A guy who seems calm but plays when he plays

A guy who goes completely crazy when the right time comes

A guy who has bulging ideas rather than muscles

That kind of guy

Beautiful, loveable

Yes you, hey, yes you, hey

Beautiful, loveable

Yes you, hey, yes you, hey

Now let’s go until the end

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On top of the running man is the flying man, baby baby

I’m a man who knows a thing or two

On top of the running man is the flying man, baby baby

I’m a man who knows a thing or two

You know what I’m saying

Oppa is Gangnam style

Eh- Sexy Lady, Oppa is Gangnam style

Eh- Sexy Lady oh oh oh oh

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Ehehe... That's right it is an English translation from Gangnam Style by PSY

When I read those lyrics.. I'm just like
"Aaaaaa I want to be that kind of girl"
and
"Aaaaaa~ I want that kind of guy too"
and
"AAAAA WHAT? "till the end?" You are a man!"
ahaha just ignore me -_-

Yeah, It's just a little present and "I'm Happy Too"greet from me
For my friends who finally wear hijab
Who insyallah finally do the limit (hijab)

Hijab literally means limit
When we use hijab.. hope that
We limit ourselves from went to an inappropriate place
We limit guys from do-what-they-like to us
We limit ourselves from being too uncontrolled and deviant
And many other "we-limit-..."

Well, I'm not that kind of girl yet
But I'm not giving up yet too :3

Let's improve ourselves together.. to be better ^^
Together.. To be more remembered Xp

note: although my hijabers friends not read it I just need to express my happiness
Well, Congratulation Fellaaaaas!!!

*=I hide some lyrics hehe

Money

"Money is not everything, but everything needs money."

BUT we don't need everything right? We need what we need.. Everything is too overwhelm.

We don't live for money, we live to reach our dreams... (mine, is not just having money then being rich-man)

We would love to do what we love... doin our passion... then money will follow us.. is it right?

You can call me naive...
But I call it.. trust and faith
To my soul.. my passion.. my want etc.

not retarded.. I'm advance.. I've learned.

Money can be a measurement. In fact, the rich always seen by people everywhere. But we don't give a shit to people out there, who just can see us from our cover.. right?

Cause, we don't live to make them happy. We live to make ourselves, people we love, and people who love us happy--people who close to us.*

And people who close to me, also knew that it isn't money... the reason why we live. It isn't money which can make them and me... happy.

So, I choose to believe what I want to believe... that my conclusion for this topic is:
Really! Money is not everything.

God, thank you so much for much happiness you already gave and will give.. If just a "happiness" is already awesome. How about you... the one and the Almighty who gave it.
I hope I can be your true and real servant.

:)

*God is not a "people". But God loves us. And we love God. And we live for God :)
So sorry, I just don't know a suitable word to replace that "people" word.

Try

From:
Im a Muslim & Im Proud

Allah Says:-

... Try to Walk on My Way,
I'll Make all the Ways Easy for you.

Try to Spend your Wealth in My Way,
I'll Open Oceans of Treasure for you.

Try to Leave your Wills for Me,
I'll Make your Desired Destiny for you.

Try to Bear Pain on My Way,
I'll Open the Doors of My Care for you.

Try to Believe in Me,
I'll Make Sincere Friends for you.

Try to Be Mine,
I'll Make Everyone for you !,