I'm Scared

Dear diary,

"today I convinced myself
it was ok to give up.

"Don't take risks.

"Stick with
the status quo.

"No drama, now is
just not the time.

"But my reasons aren't reasons,
they're excuses.

"All I'm doing is hiding from the truth,
and the truth
is that..."


I'm scared, Stefan.
I'm scared
that if I let myself
be happy for even
one moment...

that...
the world is just going
to come crashing down,
and I--
I don't know
if I can survive that.


***

"Dear diary,

"Hari ini aku meyakinkan diriku bahwa tidak apa-apa menyerah.

Jangan mengambil risiko.

Pertahankan status quo.

Tiada drama, sekarang bukan waktunya.

Tapi alasanku bukanlah alasan, itu pelarian.


Semua yang kulakukan adalah bersembunyi dari kebenaran,

dan kebenarannya adalah... "

Teknik sipil?

Tadi saya googling

daaaan ada!

http://edukasi.kompasiana.com/2011/02/04/belajar-apa-sih-teknik-sipil-itu/

Makin tertarik deh sama teknik sipiiil.... Trs saya baca kata2

"Buat temen-temen yang ingin melanjutkan, teknik sipil merupakan salah satu jurusan yang dapat dipertimbangkan. Selain memiliki prospek kerja yang bagus, teknik sipil juga dapat mengajarkan kita untuk lebih mandiri dan lebih menghargai waktu. Jadwal kuliah yang padat dan diselingi dengan tugas mandiri yang lumayan berat, mau tidak mau akan membuat kita pandai mengatur waktu dan tidak bergantung kepada orang lain, terlebih lagi kepada orang tua.  Banyak pengalaman dan ilmu baru yang akan kita dapatkan. Kita dapat merancang bangunan, merancang capuran beton, dan lain sebagainya yang terkait dengan bangunan sipil. Berkunjung ke tempat lain untuk melihat bangunan sipil yang ada juga merupakan pengalaman yang menarik. Ilmu yang dipelajari dalam teknik sipil merupakan ilmu terapan yang dapat dipratekkan secara langsung. Kendala terbesar yang mungkin dihadapi oleh lulusan teknik sipil yaitu perbedaan antara teori yang didapat di bangku kuliah dengan permasalahan yang dihadapi di lapangan. Permasalahan di lapangan memiliki berbagai macam faktor yang harus diperhatikan agar permasalahan tersebut dapat diselesaikan."

Wuaaaaduuuuh! Tajeem,,, saya nggak bisa ngatur waktu, saya masih trgantung orangtua.. Tapi saya masih kelas dua! Nggak papah kalo gituuu hahayyy... Challenging brarti :3

Tapi tetep ajaaa masih bimbang mau ke fakultas apa nantinyaa... Semoga dapet yang terbaik untuk saya lah... Amiiin :D

From Jogja :D

Have you ever heard 'Merapi Erruption'? In Jogja.. Well, I go to Jogja or D.I.Y or Yogyakarta, and you must know! Jogja already cure quickly

I went to many places... Look! Look!

1st Place: BBKKP (This place like a leather center from government in Jogja, I can't tell it, in english. I don't know, hahaha.)

  Big ironer! Isn't it?

Ironer for leather

Hot pan for shoes...

Base for shoes made with this tool

Frog leather can be usefull!

We can use this kind of leather, example, for wallet

2nd place: Ratu Boko Site

Gapura

One of The Pendopo Side

Back Side of The Pendopo

Gua/Goa/Cave for Meditation

What The Hell

I really like these 3 words.. (Sometime)... But, this song? I would always like :3

I always like Avril! By the way.. let's sing this song!

Lyrics from ( http://www.directlyrics.com/avril-lavigne-what-the-hell-lyrics.html ):

You say that I'm messing with your head
All cause I was making out with your friend
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong
I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good,
But now
I'm thinking What The Hell
All I want is to mess around
And I don't really care about
If you love me
If you hate me
You can save me
Baby, baby
All my life I've been good
But now
Whoaaa...
What The Hell

So what if I go out on a million dates
You never call or listen to me anyway
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
Don't get me wrong
I just need some time to play

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good,
But now
I'm thinking What The Hell
All I want is to mess around

And I don't really care about
If you love me
If you hate me
You can save me
Baby, baby
All my life I've been good
But now
Whoaaa...
What The Hell

Lalalala la la
Whoa Whoa
Lalalala la la
Whoa Whoa

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head when
I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good,
But now
I'm thinking What The Hell
All I want is to mess around
And I don't really care about
All my life I've been good,
But now
I'm thinking What The Hell
All I want is to mess around
And I don't really care about
If you love me
If you hate me
You can save me
Baby, baby
All my life I've been good
But now
Whoaaa...
What The Hell

Lalalalalalalalalala
Lalalalalalalalala

Oops! Almost forget! FYI this song is a new single from her new album:

Goodbye Lullaby

Happy Bitrhday To Us! Y!

In this January, I would give my thanks to "KITA" love you much kawaan XD

Happy Birthday To Mee!! hehehe

And Also happy birthday for my best girlfriends, nenen n pidyyy XD

 

Vidyah's day :3

 

Nancy's day :3

Huwaaa~ I just wanna cry because I can't be there, but I just can do nothing, its already happened.. :(

But friends. I hope you know, I really want to be there.. So just pretend that I was there, okay okay???  Once again! Happy birthday :3 :3

Suffer

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"How To Start It?"

Ya Allah.. Kuatkan hamba mu ini agar tidak stressss! Huwaaa~  TT^TT saya takut menghadapi minggu depaan..

Berdasarkan catatan.. saya akan menghadapi berbagai test, dari yang matpel ipa sampe bahasa jerman (yg emang rutin test tiap minggu sih).. dan PR saya juga nggak kalah mengerikan! Jadi bingung mau ngapain.. mau belajar atau ngerjain PR yang mana dulu ya....

It's still early second semester!!!! But great pressure on me! I just wanna sleep tight, read and eat much this year! But those activity just illution for me! Huaaaa hu hu hu...

Actually, I really wanna study hard for this semester.. I reaallyyy want.... not just "bullshit" from my mouth, but I don't know how.. How to start it?

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