Saturday, June 22, 2013

Midnight. Thinking. In my bed.

So today, fear comes again. A fear of tomorrow. Night is short when what you really want is just to postpone tomorrow. But time, never stop in any case. I know, it's not okay to live in uncertainty, but sometimes certainty lead you to a moment of regret--not always, I know.

But, do you know? I am that person who deny every regret. I'd rather choose to say "may be next time..." than "what if..." may be today I'm just a little bit sad and tired to think about my alibi of situation after certainty--my denial of regret. I don't want to think anymore, I just want to daydreaming all day long. Ah... I just wanna sleep. I really don't know why am I so lazy? Sometimes I hate to think about my planning progress. I just want to dream and sleep. I'm afraid of the future, anxious and worry.

Sometimes I really love the past, because whatever and however it is, I already can passed it. No more worry and anxiety about that. But future? Sometimes, I am really afraid my future would be worse than my present. I know it's not good. All I have to do is do the best, and let God do the rest. But I'm just afraid.

Well, It's not a 'I-wanna-be-forever-young' syndrome. I do love growing up. Be mature. And of course transform from a girl to a lady. What I'm afraid of is a spinning wheel... I mean you do know about the quote that "Life is like a wheel, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down." How about my life? I always think my life is a grateful life, full of blessing and happiness... so am I up now? And my future will be down? Or am I to often to escape from going down?

Ah God you're the want who made this heart, please bring tranquility here. God you're the one who made me please guard me. God please give me braveness to face to fact that was destined for me. Please...

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Jagalah Kesehatan

Entah kenapa gua suka banget kata-kata di gumiho yaitu ketika lee sung gi ditanyain, apa lu mau mati demi cewe lu? lee sung gi bilang "nggak mau." (gua pikir lee sung gi brengsek banget, kok gitu si nggak romantis, tapi tunggu dulu...).

Lee sung gi: "Kita berdua harus sama-sama hidup..."


"Aku tidak ingin meninggalkan mu sendirian di dunia ini... sakit... sedih... dan sendiri..."
"Kita... harus sama-sama hidup."

Damn it! You really stole my heart... That's it! A real true love. Romeo and Juliette is nothing.

dan di gumiho juga *udah pernah gua post*

Ada kata-kata begini...

"The real death of a person, not death of himself, but the death of his loved ones."

Liat di:
(http://anythingaml.blogspot.com/2012/06/gimme-o-to-give-opinion-about-gumiho.html)

Random post di malam hari ini dipersembahkan untuk kalian, setelah gua nonton the host... dan kepikiran tentang existence dan true love

Oh iya, dulu gua juga pernah nonton film barat di bioskop sama temen SMP... lupa film apa... Jaman dewa-dewi gitu... ada 1 cewe yang dikutuk jadi eternal... trs dia bilang: 
"Trust me it's painful to be eternal, it feels like you see your dearest one dying everyday, even if it's not... but it happened in my memory everday and night."

Lupa banget itu film apa... jadi teman-teman jauhilah sikap menyakiti diri sendiri... jagalah kesehatan... karena kalo kamu sakit kamu pikir orang lain nggak sakit? Apalagi Tuhan yang ciptain kamu... ya kan?

Good night :)

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Do you know, how many stars in the sky? Do you know how many flowers in this universe? I don't know. But alone, or together they are awesome. I want to be like them.